Life

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Today's service was excellent and timely. Sarah Young from USA preached about how we are sinners whether or not we accept it BUT God loves us no less. And if there's anyone we could go to in our state of sin, it should be God and of course, His people (which is harder). I decided to go up for prayer. It was a tough call but i just couldnt stop tearing. Somehow i felt His love again. Of course, dancing today brought me to that level. But beyond that, i was reluctant to make a change , back to where i was..i kinda enjoyed the way things are now. But i realise, its not about having to change 360 degrees. I dun have to give up certain things because i think i have to but rather, i believe its His love which will gradually change us.

I have been leading a less innocent life as of late. Doing things i shouldnt and not caring much about it. Yeah, every weekend. Fri was a wake up call but something which i didnt wish to happen, happened. I never want to be in that state again. Of course, as i lead a life like that, i d draw furthur and furthur away from God. But today, i was reminded of how much i'm loved, regardless of what i do. Contrary to what people concieve religion to be, i can only say this much, God is real. And you willl never know that till you CHOOSE to experience it yourself. God's love is FREE and yet people have issues accepting it. Funny that people still complain about everything becoming expensive and when there's something for free, they don't want it.

Why do i say that God is real? well, today as i went up for prayer and someone from the USA team came to pray for me, she prophesized over me and every single thing she said about me was true. She said i was having attacks from people and also of my identity and i need to rebuke that before it gets to me. She also knew i doubted how much God loved me and she said that God wants to tell me that he adores me. OMG, Jesus, i'm not worthy of that statement! And once again, it was so easy to return back to Him. Tell me, if God is not real, how would this lady from the states who knows squat about me, able to tell me so much truth? How is it, i could just stand in his presense and just tear and feel so loved? Well, This has happened one too many times and each time it comes timely because it reminds me that Jesus is true and real.

I wouldnt say that i could go back to where i was.. but i'll try.
I cannot say that i will succeed, but i'll try.
I know Jesus sees the heart
And regardless of what i do, he still loves me.

You can experience this love too, if only you will try too.

As i was in town today, i had tea at the foodcourt and this lady pushing a dimsum cart came up to us. I spoke to her in cantonese and she was shocked. She didnt bother selling me dimsum anymore. She just wanted to know me. She kept singing my praises and telling my dad that he's lucky to have me as his daughter. She made 4 rounds, she came back to me 4 times! She said she felt i had a good heart and when she found out that i was a social worker, she asked me if she can talk to mE about her problems. She said, she has asked God so many times to help her but to no avail. I gave her my name card. But it struck me that it was the perfect opportunity to be a blessing. I decided to wait for her at the corner. Tried telling her to give Jesus a chance but she had to work so i took down her number.
After this experience, i realised that a lot of things happen for a divine reason. If i had continued to be bo chap, i may have just lost her and not helped another soul.

Life's a choice. Make the right choice.

Have a great week!