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Monday, December 25, 2006

Its Christmas again. This time, it is flying past me or rather i chose to let it fly past me so as to forget the period last year and the yearsbefore..Well..ultimately, Christmas is supposed to make everyone happy but to me, it means many things. Some i can retrieve as memories, some i dun want to store in memory and some i wish i could re ignite again.

people celebrate christmas with different meanings. To many, it is about presents, the giving and recieving. At the core of everything, it is about Jesus. The birth of Jesus. This is the reason why everyone celebrates. The spirit of joy and giving, stems from the idea that the birth of Christ brought joy to the world and the unconditional love he gave everyone of us, displayed in the act of giving gifts to one another. It is because of His love for us that we can love others too.

Unconditional love- youde, kris and i were talking about it last night, after a really long day.. about selflessness and not expecting anything in return. This is by far the most difficult concept to comprehend. A simple yet complicated concept. How easy it is to give a present n yet expect to recieve one too yet the idea of unconditional love means that you give a present, not expecting anything in return. To me, there's only one person i could possibly do that to. For everyone else, it seems that either subtly or explicitly, i'd expect something in return. As we all strive to be like Jesus, considering the unconditional love he had for us when he died on the cross and didnt expct anything from us, let us consider this idea of possessing such unconditional love for one another. My reflecting point for christmas 2006.

I had my office christmas party last thurs and i was in charge.. it was a blast in my opinion . I really hope everyone basked in d spirit of Christmas and enjoyed the company.

I watched " The holiday" with the kaka rani's aka the thailand travelling bunch. The movie reminded me of how much i had wished to get away to somewhere new and start my life once more. Home exchange. What an excellent yet unachievable idea, of cos if i had my own home in the states, would be a different question. But for now, i truly wish to be in the position of cameron diaz in the movie. Makes me wanna speed up the process of doing my masters asap.

I missed Vanessa's christmas party as i was really not in the right frame of mind. That was on Sat. I had gone to church for worship prac and i felt really melancholic for the rest of the day. Also, i wasnt well. but i did feel terrible about it because she felt sad that i wasnt there. I apologize my dear sista.

Sunday was Service and i saw my colleague and my auntie in church. i was totally surprised and to me, was a christmas present in itself. some other things made my day too. Went for Kristen's house party at night and we had a bridal shower for Sandra. That was planned the moment i knew she was eading there so we asked whichever ladies we felt would make a different in this event to be there and we had a sweet time. Yes, since she didnt want a hens night, thats the most we could do i guess. Now, its all about the wedding. And i cant wait.

After hanging out with youde and kris last night till 2am, i slept till close to 2pm today. I had not slept this much after a really long time and i know i was exhausted..emotionally and physically exhausted.Now i have to get down to reading the self mutilation book to proceed with the research project i'm supposed to take charge of at work. What a challenge.

Appraisal's over. I think it went ok. just a few things that opened my eyes. I guess 2007 would be a year of self awareness and added competence. Also, i'm the new welfare officer at my workplace and after knowing of the numerous responsibilities and 20 people to care and consider for everything planned, i think its going to be a difficult feat. By God's grace.

Have a blessed Christmas everyone.