Life

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

My girl came yesterday to take the notes and gift we gave her
I refused to see her,
All i did was peep at the window
She came again today
with two other boys
I was strugglign to face my emotions
I faced it and bravely stood out
She refused to talk, looking blankly at the floor
I left her int he room for 15 minutes
Came back in with the thermometer worksheet
I asked her what sort of temperature she has now
She said 39 degrees
I asked her why
She said she felt betrayed by me
The conversation on the paper went on for about half an hour
I teared,i couldn't help it.
I'm too emotional, i cannot be taking validation from my clients.
I left her with the next appointment
And now i can't stop looking at the thermometer sheet and tear.

"Help me Lord to stay strong with this precious girl. Help me to rest in your comfort and under your wings. Help me know that i'm competent enough to deal with her and effect change in her life. Help me to be a blessing to her and bring her closer to you. Thank you Lord. Amen."

We had a sharing by the president of the psychodynamic society and my director wants us to take the post grad cert's. I spoke to him and he feels i should do the cognitive behavioural therapy post grad cert. It started yesterday and they slashed the price to half. standing at $250 rnuning for 12 classes. After this course, i'll be a certified cognitive behavioural therapist. It will definately be useful to my career but i don't know if i'm ready for this. Sigh, this sector is really tough. Professional competence is all that matters. And i feel stressed.
Everyday i thank God that i'm working in such a supportive environment where i have colleagues just spending time with me to listen to my views and let me ventilate.
Thankful, for Kelly, Stef, Martin,Vincent, Philip and my boss, Joachim. God bless them.

Laptop coming back tomo! Really thankful for selvin who readily accepted my laptop in such a horrible state and yet offered to get it done. I'm really encouraged with that and how far one would go to help a friend. God is gracious for sending me people along the way to give me comfort.