Life

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

After 5 weeks at work, i'm finally officially stressed at work. Today was meant to be my networking day and finishing my case notes but i barely did what i was supposed to. Sighs. Suddenly felt so busy, like everyone was looking for me! Seriously, one after another.. meeting then supervision.. my client actually came by to confirm with me when i was going to his house cos i didnt call him!! but i told him the timing the day before! When i tried to call the different agencies, i couldnt get any of them on the line. double sigh.
I feel like i'm not giving my best to my clients. I cant believe my client came to look for me to double check what time i was going to his house tomo. oh man.
most of my colleagues are higher qualified than i am. Most are doing their masters now. They are so aware of all the models of practice and in times like that, i just dunk my head and open my ears. Feel like my years of education has gone down the drain. Maybe i need to revise my theories and all but seriously, working as a social worker and studying social work are 2 different ball games. You won't know till ur in it. Now i feel i need to go back to studying and really preparing a lot for my cases. Just to give them the best.
I've been going late to work everyday. I know people are watching but i cant improve. triple sigh
My driving sucks. Test on MONDAY. Thats in about 4 days. i can't parallel park properly. i speed way too often and forget to change gears. I really have no mood to drive. I had to take time off from work to go for driving and i just couldnt sense the urgency of paying much attention to the wheels. I think i'm just bored, considering that its my third time and the fear that i won't pass the 3rd time. let's see how tomo goes.
I'm hugely pissed with shop oners or venders selling drinks and cigerrettes to under18's. It against the law. I'm 1 meter away from going up to this guy and slamming him. Tell him how hard it is to do smoking cessation with my youths. Tell him i'll complain to HSA. I will do that next week.
A lot of reminder for me on what friendship means this past night and today. Double confirmed with today's daily bread message and friend's message. I need to work on it. There must always be time for friends even if it means zilch time for yourself. Thats my policy. i can't compromise.