Life

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Whats the origin of the word "trust"? When they say you must trust the other half, what does that mean? No suspicions allowed? no jealousy? no restrictions? isnt that so? well, to me, the word "trust" can never be maintained. I've been aunt agony a lot these past few days.. only makes me more of a skeptic. Once your bf/ gf cheats on you, trust me, u'll never get back their whole heart again. Whatever you do and however you try, there is a chance of it happening again and that trust has just plunged deeep into the deepest ocean. I have friends telling me its so hard to break up. Oh man, i know its hard. Had my fair share of it. But relationships are meant for the long term. If such things happen now, they are bound to happen again so cut yourself from it now. So what if its been 2, 3 ,4 or 5 years? sometimes, you got to think of yourself too. There's no such thing as obligation. People tend to get too emotional and they get blindsided by their "soft" side..I guess people learn it the hard way. I admire those who would own up to their folly and go straight up to their gf/bf and take responsibility. But nay, that doesnt happen nowadays.

I don't trust men, with my own experience and with what i see around me. Even looking at my dad. It makes it all NOT OKAY. When i was in HK, i saw my friends having flings and keeping their gf/ bf in the dark. Even here. You may never expect it and may never be told. Love is not enough to sustain a long term relationship.. Stand up for your rights people. You deserve only the best.

The verse below is not just a verse to look at. Really meditate upon it and you'd be blessed. Only the Love of God lives forever.

"Love is patient,love is kind.It does not envy,it does not boost,it is not proud.It is not rude,it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evilbut rejoices with the truth.It always protects,always trusts,always hopes,always preseveres" 1 Corinthians 13 : 4 - 7

Been pretty down these few days. Not having much to do aint that fantastic. your mind wanders off and like they say, an idle mind is a devil's workshop. I totally agree. At least i have NUS open house to do and GO Fest asia to choreograph for. Upset with some people.. like you can't keep a friendship going if you dun put effort into it. Thats why i'm investing time in people..

My driving test is tomorrow. at 11am. I went for my last circuit today. I sucked at it. seriously. I have no confidence at all. i'm just doing it for the sake of doing it.
Please please keep me in prayer.