Life

Monday, February 13, 2006

I had an interesting weekend. Totally did no work. Finally met Jason for lunch on Sat!! big accomplishment for 2 busy people. Anyway, he's flying back to perth on Wed again so i had to see him. Man, he's lost so much weight after his exchange and travel escapades. Miss him really.. So i went for Gtac and i couldnt really focus.. so left to hunt for Luke's birthday present again and i was so glad!! cos i found the shirt he wanted after trying for three days.. So anyway, i went to meet Luke and Aaron at Holland V and xiaohui and lydia came later. We were at settler's and we were hooked to this train/ cities game.. aaron kept winning and i'm sure he strategized and was excited about it.. then we played apples to apples , happy family, etc.. it was like 5 hrs playing games.. anyway, we went there cos there was supposed to be a traffic light party and a live band. Ultimately, the live band consisted of one singer and the guitar he was playing and the party had an "SDU" connotation to it.. so we decided to have our own fun playing and then we realised, as we celebrated Luke's birthdy that this other girl at the table next to us was celebrating her birthday too. I think i went crazy then. I sabotaged the two of them , down to the ground level.. intending for them to sing us a song.. in the end, they danced to a song.. but the host was screwed la.. he tried getting so many other couples to dance , which wasted half an hour of our precious games time. Oh, did i mention, we had to pay $12 for a free flow of finger food. now wait, that only means nuggets, french fries, nuts..and an extra $5 for free flow of drinks. That was our dinner too. Event was a flop but we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly till 12. We left the place to go to breeko cos the boys wanted to drink..and i was in the state of deciding my next destination..(which didnt come to fruition) but i was glad to have stayed with the guys.. we were so "open with each other. Its damn funny cos i've never talked like this to anyone else, except my butterfly. I just think its my research that is "opening " me up.. gosh.. the boys said i'm v narrow minded so i said i needed to learn from them.. and that went on and on.. later,one of them dropped me at little india and waited till i got a cab(not an indian driver) and i got home about 3.. well.. past my bedtime and i was thinking of some others who were still out..and i couldnt sleep..so i prayed..slept about 6 i think.. was so tempted not to go to church but still did.. so stoned today man. It so happens that today is a really emotional day. I guess its carried forward from last night's thoughts.. i kept tearing today... thinking about being "betrayed" by 2 good friends.. my conclusion would be : When trust is not present in any relationship, its as good as dead. So i was really uncomfortable the whole day.. one of my friends left for Aus today.. with things unresolved..sigh.. i wrote him an email and spoke to the other one on the phone.. i just need a few more days. There's no reason why i'd be upset if i didnt care for them really. I was thinking about another friend today too.. just felt like i was "losing" him.. saw someone who looked like him today and i was just like so sad.. totally missing him. Sigh. Started tearing again as i was talking to him on msn. Gosh..wassup with me man. i should just rid myself from all emotions. That can be done if i was in the land of narnia and be stoned. Friendship is such a tricky thing. Everyone has different expectations. I wish life would be a bed of roses. Anyway, this is the last week before sem break..gonna have to figure out some stuff.. gonna die in malay class tomo. i skipped last week's lecture too.. making it a grand total of 4 lectures in all.. die la..saya ti dak boleh la.
Have the video production on tues.. gonna be fun!! and thats abt all for school this week. haha. Maybe i'll go for my malay lect this thurs..
Tear glands seemed to have dried up.. finally can sleep. nitey.