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Sunday, January 01, 2006

So last night was spent with my relatives at my aunt's place. we were celebrating Aakash's 9th birthday as well. Well, my mind was elsewhere so i guess i was kinda anti social till i picked up the pace. U wont believe it but by the end of the day, all the 4 girl cousins were still ard while all the boys went out! man! we don't have a "life" anymore. I guess i've had that fun when i was younger. It felt funny not to have watchnight service especially, when last yr's watchnight left an impact on me, a week before i left for Hong Kong and having communion as a family. So yes, its been a yr since i left for Hk. Gosh, time flies.
i woke up this morning only to have my foot caught in my heated up straighter, all thanks to my sister. She has this habit of heating it up way before she uses it and i've finally fallen victim to her folly. It hurts, till now. It has a swell too. What a way to start 2006. Am i going to get more "bites"?
well, went to church for service and it really didnt seem like the new yr.. there were testimonies that were encouraging and i guess its just a time of personal reflection and prayer that's important. we had a family lunch at HAN's and then we were off to bright vision hospital to see granny. I had tears in my eyes as i saw her lying there and as i patted her.. i could only pray inside as she can't understand english well and she's kinda deaf and blind. I wish Dad was more pro active in asking her to say the sinners prayer and recieve salvation. I stayed even after my family left, to put her to sleep and keep her company. Mum met her old IMH colleague there and when Dr Ranjeet found out that i was doing a social work degree, he immediately asked if i was interested to work in the hospital and i shook my head. Gosh. in less than 4 months, i have to make a life altering decision and its slowly unravelling. Well, i really don't think i can hold up my emotions that well when it comes to illness and death and thats why i may not be able to work in the hospital. But then again, i got to keep praying for His hand to guide me and lead me in the direction He wants me to go.

I went off to meet steph, mike, kris and jerm at suntec to watch the chronicles of Narnia. Interesting movie. one line i picked up:" If one doesnt know the true meaning of sacrifice....even death itself will turn backwards...." I can't appreciate such movies but this one, still ok. The movie is pretty centred around Christ's sacrifice for us.. like how the lion sacrificed his life for Edmund and then he "resurrected" like Christ did and victory was His. Jesus died for us and rose again and thats why he is the one and only true "God".
I'm not excited for the new year. i'm treating it like any other...it will not be pleasant to think about it and start worrying. I'll just leave it in my Saviour's hands.
God is good, he won't let me down. He has my interests at heart. He knew me even before i was born. He knows what my life will be like, what i will work as, who my life partner will be etc. I guess the key is to stop letting my own emotions and thoughts run my life and let Him take over. Thats my only resolution for the year.
I don't have school till next week. Tues is a holiday so that leaves every other day next week a holiday for me. Let's pray that some school calls me to relief teach!
Till then, Blessed 2006.