Life

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Its funny how when i least expect being busy, i am. Didnt even have time to blog. well, Thurs had lotsa people at my place, some chilling, some discussing for the christmas party.. and then i cooked pasta ariabiata again for kris , Jem and Sis and was happy they liked it. Oh, sis didnt get a chance to try cos no one put the food back in the fridge and i realised it at 5 am. well, i got ready to go to china black and there was a really long queue and i cant belive i saw Jason and jonathon. well, it was the SIM-UOL pageant and my ex classmate was in it and he won. You Go, Marcus!and i was home only at 5am. can't believe it. Now my sleep cycle's screwed up again. i didnt quite enjoy myself cos was pretty upset with my friend's behaviour and it really saddened me cos i feel partly to blame that i didnt get that involved in their life. And now, i've to accept it that things have changed and i have to think about how i can be a blessing to them again. Its funny how i thot everyone else was busy so i dun initiate meeting them but Xing yee told me yesterday that she felt that i was too busy for her. Sigh. its so not true.i dunno la.
Fri was an interesting day. I've been really almost penniless(liquid cash) and i couldnt pay my driving instructer. Mum didnt have money for me and i was short of $22 so mum told me to dig out all her bags and accumulate small cash here and there. i managed to get the amt. i was late for driving but Mdm Teo had to go back to the centre so in the end, my latecoming cancelled out and we started HALF and hour late. well, i was happy. every 15 mins costs me $6. Well, she said i was driving well and had a lot of control and she gave me a motivation to give me back $10 should i continue to drive like that till the end of the lesson. And i did! so i got back $10 and whats more, she gave me an extra 15 mins of driving cos she said she was happy with me. wow. so amazing.
Went to visit grandma again and she looked better. Tis time, i really almost wanted to cry and i was singing to the Lord and trying to put her to sleep.. i realise di do love her very much although i dun feel that connected to her. She didnt wanna let me go and kept holding my hand. I felt so "wanted".hehe.
went to look for a christmas present for Dad with mum. 1st time i've spent that one hr with her alone. sigh. What have i been doing in my life that i am leaving out all the important people out of the equation? reflecting too much eh.
Today was the christmas celebration for UNi cell. it was a blast! i think we had about 36 -40 people? my friend Anand came and i was glad he's easygoing and friendly. well, hopefully, he was as comfortable as he said he was. The christmas story was told, all had fun, food was awesome, the rain didnt dampen our mood and we ended aout 9pm. Had a lift back from Ky. what a satisfying day.. Although its temporary happiness for me, lets hope each day carries the joy and gets me by! I can't believe i'm going for a mission trip on mon. I'm barely prepared.

yOu know sometimes u miss a person so much that u become so numb?
Only the Lord's love and joy can be permanent, all other things will fade and pass away. THE BIRTH OF CHRIST- THE HOPE FOR ALL MANKIND.