Life

Monday, December 12, 2005

so on friday night i get a surprise/ shock that i've to take over one of my dancers for an event on Sat and although i had learnt the basic steps, i barely got familiarized with them so it was scary. i rushed home to practise and thank God there was another practise on sat morning for a good three hrs. Perf was at 730pm. was supposed to be rushing down to church for worship prac after that and there came shocker number two. Got a call at 7pm to tell me that he can't come for prac! AT 7PM, THATS WHEN WORSHIP PRAC WAS SUPPOSED TO START. i mean, thats like the worst honestly.A lthough informing on that day itself is bad enough, informing me on that minute is totally unacceptable. suddenly thought to myself, why dun people know the meaning of responsibilty? if u have a schedule to keep up to, u will make arrangements to keep to it. This is an example of taking things for granted. would u miss an interview given the same situation? i had an injured knee, a really big shock, woke up in shock and early that morning and yet i told myself i have to go for my schedule, only to be bummed out. was so pissed and a close friend( wonder if this term is still applicable cos i dunno what being close means anymore) had to take it from me. poor thing. was really blessed when he messaged me (5 sms's), a prayer that touched my heart and moved me to tears.. i wonder when i'd break down from all the crap i've to deal with and he reminded me of keeping the joy of serving and learning to trusT Him more. well said pal.
This morning, still had some unhappiness as i went to church.. feeling blue.. couldnt worship God cos my mind was wandering all over and yep, had a real uncomfortable physical feeling. yep. it was confirmed when Lyd told me i had stained my skirt n i knew rightaway i was in crisis. I have never stained anything in my life before! yucks, so i got my period unexpectedly without warning. I had 3 meetings today so i ran up and down to attend them all , and only getting my lunch at 330pm;waiting for Ky to bring it . We had a Uni cell gathering today. went to Dawn's place to discuss the christmas plans and to swim, play tennis and play badminton thereafter. i got a try on the massage chair. my body needed something like that although nothing beats the human touch..and i was really low today cos of cramps and all but yeah, nothing can stop me from playing badminton. i think sometimes i do take things too seriously , like badminton and friendship. I guess i was just nurtured that way. But anyway, we went for dinner at sempang changi and then to josh's place to watch chicken little and now i'm over at kris's place, staying the night. so its been a long day. But kinda happy to see so many people come today. in all, there were 16 with youde's friends and till the end, about 9 - 10 left. a good number to be honest. Not just the number but the fellowship we share. Glad that some of them came. really. Thanks Jem.
Hope u felt comfortable.
Survivor finale tomo!