Life

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

i dun feel like talking about it so i'm typing it. I really feel very sad.
I took my advanced family centred social work practise exam at 5pm today. i woke up early to study a bit more.. then went to school early.. it was all going on fine. then comes the paper.. my lecturer told us it was 4 qns choose 2 but he seperated the 4 questions into sect A and B and we have to do one from each! Then i realised that the most of what i studied, Bowens multigenerational therapy.. never asked for! so first qn was on family sculpting and guess what it was just the night before that iw as telling myself that i didnt really udnerstand it and i revised it again this morning and i couldnt catch it that well.. but i memorized a little and thats all i had to purge out. i was so confused when i was writing it.. but i wrote and wrote.. i think 7 pages.. i really dun think it was good.. hoping the next qn will be better but i only had 25 mins to do it.. and best part.. after writing a page, i realised i didnt understand the qn.. and i didnt understand where my answer was heading..its only when i had one minute left that i decided to write the sentence, "so postmodern family therapists believe in the social constructionist approach" and i stopped there only to realise thereafter that the question was focussed on social constructionist approach and i wrote 3 pages of crap with one sentence of relevance.
Now u imagine how i feel. I feel like the worst ever when it comes to exams.
Mum cheered me up with a christmas dress she bought me. really pretty, mys is was complaining that my mum didnt buy her one. i told her she has money to buy herself. heh. It came appropriately.
I'm really at the lowest. My most likes module, most confident content.. i knew almost all i needed to..and i screwed it up cos i misread. what the heck is postmodernist?! But a few of my friends reminded me that there's still mercy. mercy of the Lord. and yes, i'm praying for His mercy.Its 50 marks. not a small percentage. i could possibly fail.