Life

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

I realised that i didnt correct the genogram in my paper i handed up yesterday . sigh had to print a fresh copy and put it into Dr Lee's mailbox.. made a cuckold of myself..anyway, we got back our evaluation paper today. I got a C+. yep, bummer. really felt the "i'm not good enough" syndrome all over again. and i keep convincing myself of it. how sickening. I really dunno what to say la. Everything sucks. Anyway, i went for a 2 hr driving session, she pissed me off again by asking me to do U-turns 10 times!aiyah, never mind about her. i just think i'm gonna be spending a lot of money on driving lessons. I made my way to peggy's mum's place to see Valerie.. she was scared of me when she saw me! anyway, i bought her this drum toy so i enticed her with that and she slowly warmed up to me.. and i got lotsa stamp chops on my hand, she went crazy with the stamp chop. it was nice. the little girl, who's turning 2 in nov , totally brightened up my day..we went for a walk, three of us, and i was entertaining val in the supermarket..and peg said she was glad to have me around. dunno why but that gave me a sense of acceptance. somehow i just feel that what i need is something or someone to pour out my love and to take care of it like its my life..maybe i should adopt a kid. oh dear, this is not getting anywhere. maybe i'll just go sleep.Thank God for a free day tomo.
I'm dreaming of a white christmas..