Life

Saturday, July 23, 2005

So today was the racial harmony day celebration in school and i got a chance to wear my cheongsam again.. sigh its the last dya of all the trainers and even Kian yong, the other relief teacher i;ve got pretty close to. I'm gonna be all alone and bored as of next week and i'm bound to see all the relief period coming to me. urgh. 2 more weeks and i'm back to school. sigh. Anyway, funny but i got lotsa compliments today that i was becoming uncomfy that i pinned up more of the cheongsam slits at the side..i only had like 2 periods today! gosh.. and i was helping ky count marks for the papers he's marked..and then chatted with teachers and slacked till the funfair/ food fair etc started and yeah although i could go home by 1, i actually stayed on till 3 to help ky with the oaoers he had to mark! cant believe it.. i'd usually be the first to rush home but this time, its so different, there;s nothing to look forward to at home anymore. its just sleep and sleep. my room is in a mess and i havent got down to clearing it up. well, i'm still in a horrid mood..and upset with some people.. had an sms conversation with some one to clear up how i feel about things and it got cleared up, with a lot of pain. it seriosuly takes a lot from me to say something harsh in an sms.it hurts me too as much as it hurts you. I cried myself to sleep and woke up at 1030 pm! and now i'm awake yet zonked out. i really dun fancy this sorta life to be honest but i dunno how much better it could be. really wanted to go for prayer today but i was in such a bad shape.. and i just have no mood to even step out of my house.. sigh..tomo's going to be a long day. God's grace abounds.