Life

Friday, July 08, 2005

so again today i woke up without planning my day. it feels good cos i have always been rushing. Initially meant to meet jess in the evening but wedidnt confirm that too so i left that alone.. i dunno why i'm blogging.. i guess cos the person i used to talk to everyday about my daily events has not been calling and i dun like sharing with just anyone.. it just feels funny so i guess blogging is another avenue besides talking to myself. I guess i feel miserable also ebcasue of this change and i HATE IT. U know how some people were made for listening and some for talking and sharing yeah.. so theres a difference. ok well, getting on back to the day..woke up at 12 plus then had my breakfast with some cheesecake and then went online and there comes my sister and she screams as to why i havent cooked lunch!! so i sure feel like a maid.But its ok. She does it in a cute way. A hungry girl is an angry girl. I kinda freaked out cos i hate to rush and cook. but so i did. I tried the summer dish that OLGA taught me, with eggplant, tomatoes, zucchinis.. and then i refrigerated it. Then i made fried spagetti with tomato puree.. i guess it sucked..cos my sis wasnt that happy eating it so made some changes and hope it will taste better later. So its my sister's graduation later tonight and i finally have to dress up and go out. comething i havent done ever since i got back 2 1/2 weeks ago. Good feeling but i just dun have the mood to talk. socialize and see people i dun want to. And i need to shave my legs! and i can't find the wire for the epilator.just great..and no body cares to look for it! so i left that alone and here i am blogging. Sister's convo huh..funny how i'm older than her and she graduated before me. sigh.. why!she's gonan earn before me. i jsut pray she doesnt get married before me. i guess such things are inevitable to think about when your going to turn 23 in a few days! i'm really not happy. God is my only happiness and sometimes i wonder if thats enough. I'm not looking forward to next sem, no mood to do anything or go out., so many problems to settle, friendships blowing away, special people disappearing. What do i eman to you now?i feel like an invader on earth, in Singapore and a bystander.. seeing all my friends graduating, starting to work and not have time to go out.. i used to be the one to get calls to go out and end up not but now its different.. the calls dun come.. people are busy with their boyfriends/ girlfriends and i can't be be bothered to go out too. I don't know whats happening.